"It was hard letting him go and it was hard seeing him again. But all that makes me realize how happy I was at the time and I want to be that happy again. I just don’t know if I’ll ever have a relationship with someone like I had with him. I guess I just miss things how they used to be."

"I stayed in bed for over an hour
looked at things on my phone
I felt slightly anxious about nothing particular
I walked downstairs and poured coffee into a jar
I asked a person on the internet if I should take drugs
I took drugs before the person had time to respond

I feel alienated by people who express concern about me without
defining their concern in terms of a specific solution or goal
I dont feel comforted by the idea of an afterlife
I dont want to continue experiencing things after I die
I want someone to pull my hair because I like the idea of someone
controlling my head without touching my head

what is the difference between being an independent person
and being a person who is accepting of loneliness"

"Let them miss you. Sometimes when you’re always available, they take you for granted because they think you’ll always stay."